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Good News

My bestfriend is waiting for good news. Being the queen of meddle-in-everything-in-your-friend's-life, I am of course waiting with her. Excitedly as she is right now. Hopefully, we will find out soon whether it's real or not. And jump together with either news. :D

rambler on happiness

how hard it is to be happy with life? The answer should be easy, not only as in easy to answer but also EASY to be happy. Yet for me, this miserable bitch, all answer will be in the form of a shrug. Or a sigh. Why? Because for me, it's not an easy question to answer, nor it's easy to be happy. You know, again I said, it supposed to be easy. All you have to do when you're not happy is to laugh your problems off. Forget whatever misery life brings. Or simply to be grateful of what you have, instead of counting what you don't have. If I think straight, there are a lot of things to be grateful of. Those who know me close will be able to tell you all those things that I should be grateful of. I was raised in a strict, but very happy family. Loving parents. Great sisters. Financially? I never have any problems in getting what I want. Growing up was also nice, have many great friends, long lasting friendship with several of those people. In short, I have too many things to be ...

The Making of "My Blood Type:MU"

So Abang would like to have a blog in friendster <huh! what a copy cat.. heheh..>. Yesterday, he spent almost an hour doing that without telling me (yes, I was on the phone with him at that time).. He completely ignored me the whole time, and I was already getting irritated with the fact that he didn't say anything but 'Bentar Mah!' in the last half-an-hour.. At the end, he told me that he made a blog. I don't know why, but it cracked me up. I opened the page as soon as he told me the link. Voila!! The title of the blog was like "Nafasku.. bla bla bla", point is it's too long. Because it's already late in his place, I told him that I will make it shorter and change it around so it will be good to look at. This morning when we started our daily chats, he asked me the insides of friendster blogs. So I told him.. The blog is dedicated for MU..yup! Manchester United, the soccer club he is crazy about. The name itself reflects that. If you see the blo...

a while..

it's been a while since i wrote anything on this blog.. i want to write something good! let's start working.. :)

Crazy

Crazy Crazy for feeling so lonely I'm crazy Crazy for feeling so blue I knew You'd love me as long as you wanted And then someday You'd leave me for somebody new Worry Why do I let myself worry Wond'rin' What in the world did I do Crazy For thinking that my love could hold you I'm crazy for tryin' Crazy for cryin' And I'm crazy For lovin' you

capek mampus!

gue capek. andai kaki ini bisa berhenti melangkah andai hati ini kuat menahan sedih andai mata tidak lelah oleh airmata andai..

Diana's Email

I received this email from Diana, my American sister, and thought I share it with you guys! In April , Maya Angelou was interviewed by Oprah on her 70+ birthday. Oprah asked her what she thought of growing older. And, there on television, she said it was "exciting." Regarding bodychanges, she said there were many, occurring every day, like her breasts. They seem to be in a race to see which will reach her waist, first. The audience laughed so hard they cried. She is such a simple and honestwoman, with so much wisdom in her words! Maya Angelou also said these: "I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today,life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow." "I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/shehandles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangledChristmas tree lights." "I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents,you'll miss them when they're g...

Ramadhan

Indah banget yah Ramadhan itu.. Merasa gak sih? [tauk gak sih, i've been here for 15 minutes trying to describe how beautiful it is.. but to no avail] the peace. the serenity. the surrender to the almighty. the everything. it's just beautiful. you gotta experience it yourself to feel the beauty. Alhamdulillahirrabbil alamiiin..
ada apa dengan aku?

Tak Berdaya

Aku selalu sadar bahwa aku ini tidak berdaya, apalagi di hadapan-Nya. Bahwa apa yang terjadi dalam hidup ini, apa yang dirasakan oleh orang yang kita cintai, hal-hal yang diinginkan oleh mereka yang kita kasihi, semuanya tak ada yang dapat kita atur jalannya. Hari ini kembali aku diingatkan akan ketidakberdayaanku, akan lemahnya tubuhku ini, betapa inginku sangat kecil dan hampir tidak berarti, bahwa temanku hanyalah Allah SWT, bahwa tempatku meminta adalah Allah SWT, bahwa ketidakberdayaanku hanya dapat dijawab oleh Allah SWT, bahwa Allah SWT-lah yang akan memegang kuat tanganku, menuntunku, menjawab pasrahku, karena aku tidak berdaya, dalam inginku. Dalam ketidakberdayaan ini, aku menjadi sadar, akan indahnya pasrahku kepada-Nya. Allahku yang Maha Baik, aku tahu begitu banyak dosa yang telah aku perbuat, begitu banyak aku tidak melaksanakan apa yang Engkau perintahkan, begitu banyak inginku jika dibandingkan dengan patuhku.. Allah yang Maha Adil, Engkau maha mengetahui apa yang ada d...

there's this office..

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there's this office, where all the employees could just be one of the members of Srimulat, you know, that group of very-silly-and-sometimes-rude-and-stupid-comedians. there's this office, where all we did beside work, is bullying each other, eavesdropping at others' phone conversations (and making the eavesdropping obvious by suddenly giving unwanted comments or answers to some questions asked to the person on the other line), laughing, laughing and laughing. there's this office, where, yes, we still talk about each other (and yes, it's behind their back), but during one of these conversations, we never meant what we said, or even said anything that could harm this person's reputation. when we do talk about each other, somehow, we will repeat it again in front of that person, while laughing our heart off. that person, of course, will frown, but it will only generate more laugh and will not stop the talk in any ways. there's this office, where secrets seem li...

cemburu.

aku begitu cemburu. kepada orang-orang yang begitu dicintai, dan merasakan hangatnya cintai kekasih.. lalu aku bertanya: kenapa bukan aku?

[sigh]

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Give Me A Break!!!!! I have. What kind of break do you want? You are 22 hours a day without me, isn't that a break already? 2 hours is all i ask every day, and that has to be given by silencing and not saying anything, and when you do say something, it sounded like you are in prison or you're just not interested. what kind of break do you want? i won't say the 'D' word anymore, because it hurts me more than it hurts you. what kind of break do you want? do you want me out of this world? out of your life? what kind of break do you want? tell me. for a friend who is tired. yes, if dead is ever an option, it might be the best way, but Allah gives us life to be grateful and to fight. if he says, give me a break, you give him a break, he might appreciate you more in your absence! *sigh.. he might!*

oh well ya Allah..

Oh well ya Allah.. I remember this one time i ever asked Allah SWT with WHY. When He took my dad away. I asked a lot of why's those days. Now, I am asking him again with lots of why's. Ya Allah, I just want to be happy. Is it too much to ask? Ya Allah, I just want to be loved. Is it also too much to ask? Happy is in the state of mind. Allah might want me to be strong and be happy with what I have. He wants me to feel content with His Nikmat. Allah has given me a lot. Yet, He gave me pain as well to see whether I would still be able to stand strong inspite of everything. He gave me what I have now. Ya Allah, help me feel content with the promise of your Heaven.

CRAP!

I went to a movie last night with Abe, to see this movie Lake House starring Sandra Bullock and Keanu Reeves. What made me see this movie? Maybe it's because I love Sandra Bullock. And because Imel said that it's adapted from Korean movies. And, you know what I think of the movie? A total crap! Really. Why is it a crappy movie? From the most obvious reason, these two love birds fell in love in 2-year-time-difference-scheme! How did that happen? Somehow, they can interact with each other thru this mailbox in front of a lake house that Alex's dad built and Kate lived in. Well, it's just weird. I didn't think it could happen in the real life, because if you change something in the past, everything else in the future will change as well. Yes, I know it's just a movie, but a movie has to make sense also. The details are just bad, and don't get me started there! Another thing that makes it nonsense is the LOVE or romantic part of the movie! It's a total crap. ...

jealousy!

he was awake at 12am last night.. ..... ooohh.. jealousy. (edited) I wrote some pretty harsh thought last night. I didn't think I should publish it, but I want to remember the night I felt that way so I can't erase it. oh well..

%&*(&*(%#$@#!#(*)

Too many words.. Just one way to say it. Abaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnng... aku kangen kamu..... bangeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetttsss...

Did I Marry The Right Person?

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From Chicken Soup for The Soul. During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said,"How do I know if I married the right person?" I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?" Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind. Here's the answer. EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love... Because it's happening TO YOU. People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that you were...

back!

i'm back to being this selfish self again, which i totally don't mind, in fact i kinda miss her. i'm glad that i care less about things that i highly thought about these few months. i don't know how, but suddenly, it just feels like it's not worth it anymore to worry much. to agonize over stupid stuffs like getting hurt. i just got that person back. the person who guards herself well, that she wouldn't let anyone hurt her. you know, the pride one. i'm back to being her. i refused to be the person that i have been for the past months. i refused to beg. i refused to feel like i'm gonna get hurt one of these days. i refused to care much. i just thought that, whatever happens, happens. whatever will be, will be. because at the end of the day, even if i'm alone, i still have Allah SWT to keep me strong. i don't care anymore. and surprisingly, the feelings make situation better these days. pa, do you notice the difference?