Minding Kikie

lagi pengen curhat. hihihih.. lama juga gak curhat di blog ke seluruh dunia kayak gini. lama gak nulis. lama gak ngobrol. lama gak menyentuh dunia 'single' gue. emang gue akuin sejak bertemu dengan abang, dunia gue jadi agak berbeda dengan dunia gue yang lama. diri gue aja juga almost bukan diri gue yang dulu. entah kenapa. semua orang bilang gue gak sekuat gue dulu. gak setegar gue dulu. kata temen2 deket gue, gue tuh sekarang cenderung lemah dan rapuh. (i can sense their dissappointment in their tone). entah yah.. apa memang gue menjadi selemah itu? gue akui hati gue memang menjadi lebih sensitif, lebih gampang tersentuh, lebih sering merasa terbebani, lebih mudah menjadi tidak bahagia, hanya gara-gara hal kecil saja. apa itu gara2 abang? apa dia telah membuat gue menjadi orang baru ini? yang gue sendiri kadang2 gak suka ama dia. kalau jawabannya iya, maka yang timbul dalam benak gue adalah, apa yang abang lakukan sehingga gue seperti ini? apa? apa? wah kalau mau gue sambung-

if you ask.. i miss being ME...

last night we said goodbye's. for the first time. since we met. duh.. how am i gonna get through my days? how am i gonna sleep? walk? talk? work? laugh? when all i want to do is cry and be in his arms. this is only a first day. what would i be in two years? the answer would be: HAPPY because i know i won't have to get up alone anymore.. oh abang, i miss you like crazy.

i finally know how it felt to sleep in the arms of someone who is truly in love with you. know how good it makes you feel. know how safe your world is with that arms. i finally know how it felt to wake up by the touch of a little hand. know how amazing it is to hear the small voice. know that you're gonna be loved forever. i finally know how it felt to have a family of my own. know how it felt to love a person so deep you can't even describe it. know how it makes you stronger. know that you could never walk alone again, because you know how good it is to walk with people by your side.