Minding Kikie

unlike 30% of women on earth, i don't have an easy pregnancy. the constant nausea makes you feel like you're on a bad trip in a car with a terrible smell that makes you wanna puke all the time. you're just ready to get out of the car when another smell hits you, and make puke again. food.. well, i always have problems with food, i only like those junk foods, i don't eat rice, seafood, fish, meat, vegetables, well, sometimes i also wonder where i got my heavy weight :(. but i am picky when it comes all those things i put inside my mouth. and this pregnancy doesn't make it better of course, just the tought of food makes me wanna throw up. from the simple burger, or my favorite home-made-fried-chicken, or simply toast, can't do it! while i know i have to eat for this little person growing inside me, but man, never thought that eating will be tough. shoulder pains. again, i always have a sore shoulder, and i wonder why it becomes worse due to this pregnancy. and

Let's begin with: I am the mother type. I mothered every one. First it was my sisters (i practically raised these 4 kids since my parents trusted them on me), then it was (still is) my friends, even those who are older than me, and even those who resist on having me done this all the time, and of course, my husband and daughter. I mothered every one. I might be a control freak, but I don't like the word 'freak', so it's mothering then. From telling people what they should do to avoid those problems and troubles, to actually doing it from them. Anyway, I think I made my point: I mothered every one. Yet, when it comes to having a child of my own, hhm, I hesitated a bit. For whatever reasons I can find. Yes, I have Pia, and I love her, and the good thing about her is that I don't have to go through the grueling period of pregnancy. I said I am gonna have another one probably when Pia reaches 10 years old, because then, she will be big enough to understand and e