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Ternyata menerima yang terbaik itu susah juga yah. Remember all those posts about me trying to achieve my dream? Well, I don't get it. I want it bad. But I am afraid that if I get it, I wouldn't be able to bear the consequences.. so I asked GOD to give me the BEST. Now, he gave me the best! Gue gak lolos dari berbagai seleksi yang udah gue ikutin sejak bulan Juni. Saat ini sih gue belum bisa liat kenapa gue gak dapet.. tapi I believe that GOD must have planned something greater than this.. But for now, I just want to say.. accepting The Best ternyata gak semudah yang gue bayangkan.. :D Aza!

Happy Birthday Daddy!! Too bad you couldn't be here with us to celebrate it... If only you're here, I would give you the shirt and tie you've been nagging me about.. Well, your lost :)

Wow. The phone finally rang. I'm almost there. Step 3 is here. Have you ever cried because you want something really bad? I have. Last night. I want this. Wish me luck.

Hmmm.. Kok belum ditelpon juga yah?? *Ngarep.com* Hehehehe :D

I'm still not over you. I'm still sobbing. I'm still crying. I'm still here on my knees.. Begging for you to come back.. To sit on my right at the dining table. To ask for my food. To watch all those action movies I am so reluctant to buy. To tease me. To make me mad. To give me good advices. To not listen to what I said about cholesterol and cokes. To just be here. For Me. Because even after 9 months and 21 days, I'm still not over you. Still sobbing. Still crying. Still finding ways to live my life without you. Daddy, I miss you. Please forgive me.

Dia lewat lagi. Kita bertemu lagi. Bertukar senyum lagi. Ia berjalan... Terlihat yakin akan dirinya sendiri. Menatap ke depan dengan penuh percaya diri. Langkahnya mantap dengan kedua tangan di dalam saku celananya. Acuh tak perduli pendapat orang. Pendapat orang akan... Gayanya yang sedikit 'nyeleneh' Bajunya yang selalu hitam Tataan rambut yang agak berantakan Dia memang agak aneh. Dia terlihat berbeda. Dia juga berbeda karena senyumnya. Senyum yang selalu menghiasi raut wajahnya. Senyum yang seakan menyapa setiap jiwa. Senyum yang membuatku selalu menanti... Pertemuan berikutnya... Saat kita akan Jatuh Cinta. -To Lelaki Berbaju Hitam. Thanks for making me crave again.-

A Song by Luther Vandross Back when I was a child Before life removed all the innocence My father would lift me high And dance with my mother and me and then Spin me around 'til I fell asleep Then up the stairs he would carry me And I knew for sure I was loved If I could get another chance... another walk... another dance with him... I'd play a song that would never, ever end... How I'd love, love, love... To dance with my father again When I and my mother would disagree To get my way, I would run from her to him He'd make me laugh just to comfort me Then finally make me do just what my mama said Later that night when I was asleep He left a dollar under my sheet Never dreamed that he would be gone from me If I could steal one final glance... one final step... one final dance with him... I'd play a song that would never, ever end... 'Cause I'd love, love, love... To dance with my father again Sometimes I'd listen outside her door And I'd hear how