Minding Kikie

Al Insyirah (Kelapangan) Surah ke – 94 بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِِ Dengan menyebut nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih, lagi Maha Penyayang أَلَمْ نَشْرَحْ لَكَ صَدْرَكَ Bukankah Kami telah melapangkan dadamu (Muhammad)? وَوَضَعْنَا عَنكَ وِزْرَكَ dan Kamipun telah menurunkan bebanmu darimu, الَّذِي أَنقَضَ ظَهْرَكَ yang memberatkan punggungmu, وَرَفَعْنَا لَكَ ذِكْرَكَ dan Kami tinggikan sebutan (nama)mu bagimu? فَإِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا Maka sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan itu ada kemudahan, إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا Sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan. فَإِذَا فَرَغْتَ فَانصَبْ Maka apabila engkau telah selesai (dari sesuatu urusan), tetaplah bekerja keras untuk urusan yang lain, وَإِلَى رَبِّكَ فَارْغَبْ dan hanya kepada Tuhanmulah engkau berharap. ------- Pagi ini di tengah gemuruh hati yang sedang tak karuan (entah karena memang lagi 'waktu'nya atau memang selalu bergemuruh akhr-akhir ini), aku tiba-tiba teringat surah Al-Insyirah ini. Waktu Bapak baru b

duh, tiba-tiba kangen dengan bapak besar. bapakku. kangen dengan kehadirannya. kangen dengan masa-masa simpel ketika ia masih ada. kangen dengan ketawanya. kangen dengan senyumnya. kangen dengan kecerewetannya. kangen dengan judgement yang kadang2 salah. kangen dengan bapak. kangen. kangen. kangen.

*trus?* *clueless* but hopefull!

it's monday. no, i didn't forget it. i even counted it. waiting for it to come, because it would mean another week would come. so today week #2 begins for me and abang. *sigh* so pathetic, don't you think? i don't care. try living so far away from your husband, then you know i'm not that pathetic.. anyways, i'm praying hard, and trying hard.. so in two months we would be holding hand in hand, strolling down the streets of New York.. or LA.. or Miami.. wherever as long as I'm with him.. :) hahhaha anyways..

so.. what's up this wednesday? my hubby still in america. darn! miss him terribly.. oh well. i started going to the gym again this morning after a month break due to married and wanted to be with abang all the time.. heheh.. he left last saturday, finally. surprisingly enough, i didn't even feel like crying that day (so unlike the first one when i almost fainted because of it). the only time, i felt like crying was when they told us that his ticket was not yet confirmed so they had to put him in the waiting list. oh! i saw the dissappointment and sadness in his eyes, he's questioning why there are so many obstacles in his way to get his dream. i know he wanted this real bad, so i felt sad that day. i even wished that he wouldn't go home with me that day, because i knew he'd leave eventually. so, now or tomorrow wouldn't matter. i thought, the sooner i felt this pain, the better, so i can start curing, i can start getting used to him not being here with me, and s