Thankful

I realized today that just when you thought you had the worst luck, you'll see someone who has even the worst than your worst luck.

I thought I hit rock bottom this morning.
There's this knot.
Why wouldn't it go away?!
It's even worse today.

Maybe it was because I had such a bad cough that I couldn't hardly sleep.
Maybe it was because of it that I felt sleepy this morning.
Maybe it was because I felt sleepy that I missed my morning prayer. Dang it!
Maybe it was because of it, I have a bad mood.
Maybe it was because I was in just a bad mood that I decided to comment on that stupid internet guy.
Maybe it was the comment that made me even in a much worse mood.
Maybe it was the mood that made me notice that my staffs just don't care about me.
Maybe it was them that made me even sadder and made my mood ever worse.
Maybe it was again my mood that made the knot seems bigger and bigger.
Maybe it was the knot that finally made me cry today.

Just when I thought I reached rock bottom.
Just when I thought I was at the lowest.

My mobile rang.
A friend, X, told me its condition.
It told me what happened to itself.
It was by far the worst condition ever.

As I hung up the phone..
I realized that the knot is not so big anymore
I realized that someone else has the bigger knot now.
Someone has to go through a much worse situation that what I went thru.

Which still is a question for me.
What was it again that made me have this knot?

I forgot.
All I remember is I'm thankful that all I have to deal with are stupid comments on the internet, 'naughty' staffs, and even as small as coughs that has kept me awake all night.

Ya Allah.. Thank you.

But.. I should not miss any morning prayers anymore!

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