capeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!!!!!

...and no one could even help me! sucks!

do i push people away when they wanted to help me so often that they don't even care to lend a hand when i need it most?

or...

do i make it too easy for people that they just used to having me doing everything and think i don't need help?

what is it?????

GOD!

i'm sick with this stupid fever and bad headache that doesn't seem to go away after three days!
but no one seems to care... or at least make it easier for me to stay at home and get better!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

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